Hi All,,

Please help me guys...For some reason these days, ma aafulai marne sochu jhatta jhatta...Pahile pahile yesto sochai kahile kahi aaye pani aahile ta jhatta jhatta aai rahencha yaar......i just tried to talk about this with my family but never had guts....can't talk with my friends either as they would defniently make fun of me...I don't know man at that moment (when that kind of thoughts comes into my mind), i don't see any meaning of life or future..

Help me guys....

 

As someone pointed above...

Dear Gu.

Brother

Catch me if you can

 

You are right dude/gal…that’s the same thing I m thinking..what’s life..u grow up,,work hard, will have a family, send ur kids to school..they will grow up and the same cycle starts again…and one day we will die….if then why not not now….And may be u right I m just so tired of doing the samething over and over again for last 6 years….but why its only me who thinks like this? Not a single person I know is thinking like that way…

 

Bairaig_kailo

 

Belive me Sir,, I really don’t have any goal in my life… I really don’t know where I m heading right now neither I know

 

Youwanpras, subrath,8848m,

 

Thank you for such a positive suggestions..

 

Sajha_addict

 

The fan thing seems someway of having positive attitude..i will keep on that mind…And honestly sometimes(on that particular moment) I really want to see what happens after death?

 

Jenny

As I already said I don’t see any goal in my life..honestly…if you wondering why..may be its becaue I m having some mental disorder or something like that….and its not like its just coming all the time, its just a moment just for a second( you imagine what u can think in one second)..and about making friends…cause I know I m really really a f***king selfish I don’t think I can make friends…to let u know..there are only two people who call me…:D..and I drew that conclusion..

 

Ans

 

I want to enjoy this life..and for that we have to live..and that’s the main reason I  generated this thread……I want to live my life…….but wht about that moment..plz tell me to get rid of that moment….thanx for the video…

 

Spreadlove

 

U read my mind.”””You may not feel very social…””yeah that’s so true…..i feel alone once in a while.....

 

 

 

 

One last note,,, I know aafulai marne kura ekdum galat ho …ekdum galat and that’s why I created this threading hoping that it would guide me to some positive direction....

 

 

Ma kaslai bhanu yi sab kura,,saathi haru lai bhanna sakdina,,family lai bhanna sakdina....teskarna i m here writing all these things...i m sorry if any one get bored because of me.....

 

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Ans

Thanx for the input again..

Now i know that i  have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder too.. i know i already have bipolar disorder....cause my moods swings a lot..nobody knows it(i even don let my roommate know anything about it..u know how some people are).. and going to interent yeah.i had done so much reasearch on this..took so many quiz,,read so many articles..and that's why i came here.......let me see what else i have except these too...and one more question..should i tell all about to the girl i m getting married or just simply let it go...what scares me most is what if i never ever get better.what if it get worse day by day....

honestly Ans as a nepali usa le k k ne de la bhaner aako,,mental disorder po diyo..euta haina duita haina..aaru kati katti....i m sorry if i m bothering you...

Gu,

I think ( I am not a psychologist though) you are very rich in your imagination which is good. It is normal to have all those weird things in mind. Some people just forget it and people like you will wonder what if you do the strangest thing in life. I have similar ideas on my brain. When I read some news or something different than usual, I imagine myself in that particular environment. But I read somewhere that you can channelize those feelings in writing. You can write a blog or just start a journal. May be you are creative writer who knows? I have started that too but stopped now due to my laziness.  I am wondering if you put those thoughts in writing in sajha. There would be readers like me and also you feel lighter after you express them regularly.

BTW, your id makes me sick when I read sajha eating something at the same time.

Like someone said about financial obligations that pushed him hard. I guess in lifetime everyone goes through this at least once. I have been through it and i know the feelings. You are lucky your family listens so share with them and try to get the solutions. there is hardly any thing in world which dont have solutions. Therefore, My suggestions is believe in time and keep working hard. If you pass this situation then you will be successful and toughest guy. I hope you were not in gun point like me but i managed to get out and still working hard. I know life is not easy still never gave up. Sometimes i thought of leaving Nepal but I said to myself that i have fled and runaway and made my life miserable. Now i am fighting in hard. I wake up at 6 in the  morning and start teaching in college then go to my magazine office to do my job and in evening I work as consultant chef for restaurants. Plus I have take training progamme in my skill development center. Dont choose escape route belive me you will come back and have to bear for your sin with interest. Believe me you you can pay principle now dont leave it for interest.

Gu, 

My friend, I should talk to you. That wouldn't be a solution for you in any way - just that I share a lot of similarities to things you've written down here.

You need help, friend.  Please contact one of the following:

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or go to www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org

Call for yourself or someone you care about

Free and confidential

A network of more than 130 crisis centers nationwide

Available 24/7

Please get some help!  No kidding!

Brother, get some SSRI (serotonin-specific reuptake inhibitors).  Prozac is one of them. Watch the video to know more.

Khai k bhannea malai pani testai feelings ta aucha....i also have unnecessary fear about lots of things....every thing has its positive and negative aspect...i think the extreme negative peak point and get scared of that...mean i am becoming pasimistic day by day...also think that some uncontrolled force is making  me to do some kind of stupid things that i dont want to do intentionally. yestai ho...dimag ma chemical locha chali ra cha. tara hope na chodau sathi...life bhaneko struggle ho bhannea kura garnea matra haina yestai condition bata afulai control garera prove garera dekhai deu na..k garnea ta na janmanu parnea sansar ma janmihalieacha aba jasari bhayea pani yeslai naturally end ma puryau...because the birth was not in your control  so dont take your death in your control. let it happen naturally. thanks.

पैसा चाहिन्छ पैसा मर्न को लागि, त्यसै पाहिन्छ मर्न Free मा। वाहियात कुरा गर्छ.

Hey G,

Just went through the issue and followed comments. You seem to be brave to put your thoughts in virtual world. We all as human being have mood swings- and that not necessarily mean bi-polar. I also have thoughts (sometime scary). May be I am reading something different from what you have written- dreaming of being the best football player is a good thing man! We all dream- some for power ball, mega millions, some for Aishwarya, some for the gal/ guy in the neighbourhood, rite?

About your first point- after the first time I went to cremation (at aryaghat), I was really depressed- did not eat three meals- I thought I will die same way and my body will face same fate on fire. Then again I went to 2nd one, it was much easier to handle. Yes being human most of us, if not all, are prone in sympathetic thinking after we see a funeral or a condolence. Thats how we are.

If I were you, with those thinking, I will try to be with friends, keep myself busy doing something. Go to mall or library, play football, write stories (whatever comes in your mind). Sometime, doing meditation relaxes your brain and body- if you want try it.

I would suggest not to label yourself as bi-polar or depressed. In real life, when facing real problems, we do get depressed and most importantly, believe me we do have strength to overcome such moments.

Another angle, for me people who commit sucide, are self-centered- they don't think about others who depend on them, family, friends. People who are coward, may commit sucide, because they want to run away from problems. We have problems, because we can solve them, rite??

Cheers

Dharan

 

   

 

Gu,

My girlfriend has the OCD as well Bi Polar disorder. She also has borderline disorder on top of that and is depressed big time. Although she has not mentioned anything about suicide, she cuts herself in a regular basis, especially when she drinks and is sad at the same time. I am afraid she is developing the same kind of suicide thoughts as you. I would like to discuss with you on yahoo messenger in this matter since you are going through this too..... Please add me up at kamalbhattarai2002@yahoo.com so that we can talk about it.

GU sathi yesto soachnu hundaina. Manche ko dimag ekdam complex huncha brother. Kasle k soachcha kasle ke. U admit that u have disorders, that is very very good, and i think ppl who admit their problems arent sick at all. timilai just tyesto soachai ako. tei pani risk naline gari doc ma chahi janu. trick- yedi kunai kura le stress dincha bhaney deuso bhari soachnu n rati sutne bela dimag khali rakhnu.just sutnu. tyo kura le pirolcha bhane, yesto gare huncha. u r king of ur own mind. control ur thoughts. take it as a game, and think u r the winner. kunai naramro kura le tension dirako cha n u need to think abt it...yesto soachnu ..deuso kura dimag ma ayo bhane...afulai bahnnu wait maile yo film hernu cha..film herey pachi yo kura soachchu. film herisakepachi pahila ma bahira gayera auchu ani soachchu, bahira bata ayepachi find something interesting and ani rati bhayepachi hyaaaa rati bhaisakyo,,ahile soche bhane nindra lagdaina..bholi deuso soachchu...repeat it..few days ma tyo kura bhulincha. ani u will b fine. think u r normal. diamg na ho bro k thaha yeta suggestion dine manche haru lai pani tyo na-aula bhanne k cha? u r fine, smile more often. dont get stressed, kunai kura le  stress banaucha bhane ignore it in future and try to smile and forget that stressful moment. life is hard, sabai lai dukha huncha sabai lai sukha aucha..aba dukha bhayo bhandai ma bachnai chodnu hundaina...
as i said tyo sudden thoughts lai u can control. like what if i stab myself bhanera soach ayo bhane..right after that though u can add why should i stab myself..i have good life. good future. it is ur mind-hamile ta just do this and do that bhanna sakchau..u can control it..i m 100% sure u can, if u are motivated..even in the most stressful situation.
enjoy the sad part as u enjoy ur happy moments..this is life..and life is journey. journey ma kahile bato sanguro aucha, kahile samma, kahile ukalo ta kahile oralo, kahile strike huncha, kahile tire nai jala but hami rokinchau ta? we will reach our destination haina ta bro? u r fine..there is nothing wrong with u..timilai just eklo feel bhairako cha. try to eradicate bad thoughts la..i understand u.. i used to be very stressed once---i won over my thoughts..now i m happy n i dont care but i m focused and guess what i lost my job hahaha. alternate k ta? kei nai bhayena bhane Nepal jindabad....Nepal ma janda laaj huncha bhane ra yeta thamna sakena bahne k ta? 10-12 mahina ghottan kam garne ani india ma gayera padhai sakne....tara tyo ta just alternative ho..yeta kei bhayo bhane thik cha i will if not den i m not worried. loans? who cares..haath ko maila sunn ko thaila k garnu dhana le...dherai loan cha mero..tyo euta reason thiyo ma stressed huna ma. tara now i dont give a f. loan cha, yo cha uuh cha k garnu ta..loan diyeko manche le mardaina ta..credit card company le fine mathi fine garyo bhane tirnai chodidine,,,,gadi ko paisa tirna sakena bhane f gadi nepal ma bus chadekai ho yeta pani bus mai chadumla..sabai bhanda khattam k hola ta america ma? euta safe side chahi rakhnu parcha 1500$ jatti nepal jana lai ticket bhada...u will be fine..tara gai halne chahi haina..yo chahi mind lai sahanabhuti dina ho...college lai paisa tirna pugena bhane nepal jindabad...nepal ma banda mathi banda bhayo bhane india jindabad...kei na kei bato aucha...just think that way bro u will b fine. yo saab mann lai sahanabhuti dine euta bato ho...kei sip nalage yo pani bato aucha..tara stress linu hunna....life is too beautiful to get tensed in these smaller issues. ani abt getting married. u should get married... i again repeat- go to doc just to satisfy urself, n u r fine, think that u r fine.

I dont know if this applies to u..but i wanted to help u..
be happy bro.



To KAMAL bro- I am very proud of u brother, u r still with ur gf in this situation. Coz many ppl dont.

dharane_kancha ko yo suggestion ramailo cha and effective huncha jasto lageo "kunai naramro kura le tension dirako cha n u need to think abt it...yesto soachnu ..deuso kura dimag ma ayo bhane...afulai bahnnu wait maile yo film hernu cha..film herey pachi yo kura soachchu. film herisakepachi pahila ma bahira gayera auchu ani soachchu, bahira bata ayepachi find something interesting and ani rati bhayepachi hyaaaa rati bhaisakyo,,ahile soche bhane nindra lagdaina..bholi deuso soachchu...repeat it..few days ma tyo kura bhulincha."

class ko yaad ayo ek janalay pani yastai bhanayko thiyo exam exam bhayra ani tehi kura ,sir lay chai kata bata sano  sor pani sunaycha tyo sir thakur thiyo ani bhanyo life ma kay kay ramailo kura hayrana baki cha taysato kura

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